Friday, March 31, 2006 5:29 AM
Dear journal,our school's 2nd annual cross country is over and i'm glad to announce that our house,Sagitatrius won.cool.2 times in a row man.i hope we can defend the title next year too.yeah~i'm also happy that i was able to finish the race without collapsing like last year and i don't have to remember that scary day whenever i pass by macrithchie.but i'm quite dissapointed with my performance.next year will try to get top 20 though it's really ambitious of me.this guy in my school run super crazy la.he's not human for sure.he finished 4.8km in 15 minutes. 2minutes faster than the fastest j2.crazy.i think he only know how to eat,sleep,shit and run.confirm.haha.not getting enough sleep these days.find myself sleeping in almost every lecture which means i'm depnding alot on my tutorials.this is bad.i've got to find a way out of this shit.maths test the next week and physics the following week.super shitty.napfa test is also coming in a week's time.gosh.what to do first?i've done the shittiest thing in my whole life.i created a chinese blog.but just because we have to.can't even manage this blog well and getting another in CHINESE? shit,shit,shit.readers please forgive my language i'm going to use for the next paragraph but i have no better words to express my situation.I've seen too much,i've heard too much,i've been thinking too much and i'm getting so tired.i'm so miserable and fucked up.i never knew life was going to be so fucking tough so shitting soon.it just hurt so much inside that i wish i woke up one day to find out it didn't even happened.i'm sure nothing will hurt more than this.........
Tuesday, March 28, 2006 7:07 AM
Dear Journal, it was really a busy week for me.my assignments and tutorials are starting to pile up and tests are coming soon.super stressed. i spent my last weekend on band.i'm most delighted to say that infusion '06 in victoria concert hall was a success.my balls shrank into half when i played my 3 second solo man.but didn't screw it up.congrats to all performers.we've done it again!!! =)another memorable night engraved into my heart.it was truly a great experience.my greatest appreciation for friends who supported me by turning up even in your tight hectic schedule.thanks loads!!=D maybe i would consider playing for next year also.hhhmmm... in the other hand,i'm also facing the toughest period of my life.i've seen too much and heard too much.everytime it just tears my heart into pieces and i can't sleep at night sometimes.it just hurt so much inside that it doesn't help one bit after crying the whole night.it's just so difficult to appear to be happy nowadays.depression is killing me.i just need someone to talk to desperately.if just samuel was still around in s'pore.i just don't feel like carrying on with my life anymore.what to do??? i just don't understand why my class 0612j is so damn united.but i like it.=)yeah~ tomorrow's our sch's annual cross-country.i hope i don't pass out like i did during my sec 4 cross country.it's damn scary la.all the best everyone.C=
Tuesday, March 21, 2006 6:43 AM
Dear Journal, it's been like a billion years since my last entry.life has been really accelerating these few weeks.i'll briefly update about my new life in innova jc. orientation was really boring.but can't really blame the ogls as they didn't have enough time.took me some time to make some new friends within my OG.My clan was really dead.my og was like 90% foreigners which was super weird.after orientation was the march holidays and we had to go back to school on tuesday,wednesday and thursday.lectures was super fast which almost none of us could understand and had to study alot to catch up with the 1st intake people.start of term 2,were split into classes according to our subject combinations. my class? 0612j. initially,i thought my class was full of dead people but found out that they're a bunch of nice people. teachers are nice too.so i guess i'm really fortunate.but so many tutorials,lectures and assignments to catch up and tests are also coming in a couple of weeks time. to make things worse,PW question is going to be out tomorrow.it's damn shitty man.so damn stressed.it's worse than i expected.now i know why those idiots in my sec school chose poly even though they could study in jc.but no regrets so i'm gona start mugging my ass off.hopefully i can cope.i'm loaded with tutions from maths,chinese,GP,chemistry,physics to korean language that i can hardly find a time to unwind. furthermore,tennis training starts from tomorrow and i'm preparing for a concert which is held in the victoria concert hall this sunday.gosh,even if i had 48 hours a day,it would not be enough.anyway,go support us in victoria concert hall this sunday 7.30pm if you're free.tickets at $10 each. i really miss everything in secondary school.my friends,teachers,seniors,juniors,uniform,overflowing of free time[ok la.i'm exagerrating] and the fun we had back there.i really do.i just wish we would stop growing up in secondary school.things would be so wonderful then.4 years in whitley was indeed the best 4 years in my life.oh boy,time is really cruel isn't it?we only have 1 chance to enjoy the climax of our lives. question of the year is "what did you have for breakfast?" and ideal answer to the question is "bread & milo".how nice.