Thursday, September 29, 2005 6:02 AM
Dear Journal, got back all my papers. I thought the world was crashing down on me when i saw a B for accounts. I was really devastated. really wanted to get a distinction for accounts.So now my horrible results,with no distinctions only can get me into MI but no jc. I totally screwed it up. I could have converted my B4s into B3s if i didn't made careless mistakes for maths,science & accounts.What a waste. But actually i did improve overall compared to my mid-year results. I'm just not statisfied. I will never be until i hit my target of 13 points. 16 more points to my target. Far but not impossible & for that i have to go on the old mugging road again. I'll put everything on the line for the month of october. No matter what,i'm going to succeed,i will make it.The key for me is to think positive & have confidence.I really need more encouragement. I going to mug like never before. 1 month can make a whole world of difference. went to study wih mark,emmeline,her cousin & daniel on tues night at admiralty macdonalds. Then slept over at mark's place. I thinkmy handphone charger dropped off whilei was chasing for my bus. Super unlucky man.How unlucky can i get? The next morning woke up at 11. Went to macs again to study at 12. Left at 5 as i had tuition at 7.30.I tried to go back to the bustop & look for my charger but couldn't find it. Today i went to school to try to push my marks up for some subjects so i could get into MI but actually i didn't have to as i already qualified for it. relieved but still dissapointed that i wasn't able to make into a jc for 1st 3 months. Well,better than mugging in Korea i guess.Attendence was shitty as expected. After school had a maths then went to buy my charger before i headed home. Going to have tuition in a few minutes time so i better stop here.
Monday, September 26, 2005 7:00 AM
Dear Journal, my prelim results really suck. REALLY SUCK!!! I'm going to flung my a maths & i'm not statisfied with any of my subject.Well, except social studies because i finally passed that damn subject.i cant go 1st 3 months lerx.Prepared to stay in korea for 3 months without friends.Sian.T_T Played enough for the past 5 days.Better start mugging again. No more 2nd chance.i can't afford to screw it up again. Never again. Hoping my accounts can get an A.
Saturday, September 24, 2005 9:21 PM
Dear journal, yesterday was anoher memorable day. In the morning played tennis with janice,sam & austin in the morning. 3 straight days playing tennis .I'm all burnt especially in my face.The weather was like freaking hot .Must had been like 35 degrees out there.Then the clouds keep moving in & out.Damn irritating man.Why can't God just make up his mind? Sam left 1st at 10 while we decided to stop at 11.30.After taking a quick shower at my place,we went to adam road to eat.Actually supposed to go play pool with sam but he was too tired so janice asked me to join Xiaping & her "studying" at orchard.Took a chard from adam road to j8 to meet xp.The cab driver drove really slow. I thnk his grandma crawl backwards also faster than the speed of his cab.Austin went off while we took mrt to somerset. Went to heeren because xp wanted to buy a cd in hmv.There were some policemen demonstrating some defence moves but they loooked all the same to me.After she bought the cd, they went window shopping.most of the times i just stod outside the shop & waited for them.After that went to far east plaza because xp wanted to get her ammended skort.The weather was still HOT. But when we reached the shop,the girl at the counter said we either had to go to bugis or come back on monday. So we just went yo eat at the hainanese chicken rice as xp havent had her lunch yet. Went we entered the stall,we saw Daniel Ang & his family excluding his dad eating there.What a coincidence. Or should i say that s'pore is just too small. haha.After our lunch,we went to scotts plaza coffee bean to sit down & study.But unfortunately,the coffee bean there was packed & we had to go to mcCafe at Lido instead.That place was also packed but we somehow managed to find a place to sit.Bought ice passion tea & i started to do some maths while they took photos of themselves.Tried to concentrate but in this intense heat & the flashes of camera,i gave up after like 30 mins only doing 10 questions of the nov 2003 paper.It seemed to me that their true objective was lost completely.Haha.Then later daniel came over & we went to marina to meet our accounting gang.Everyone reached around 6 & we went off to eat our dinner.Only Erine was missing as she was busy.The place was again crowded but nevertheless, we enjoyed cooking,eating & crapping. Took some pictures together then we went to play some pool & bowling.But there was no lanes for us to bowl but only 2 miserable pool tables.Played quite a few games,wasn't too bad.PLayed table soccer before we headed home.That was 11 at night & i told my parents i was going to reach home at 11. The journey home was long & tiring.We crapped on the mrt until cuimin & i got off at newton. Once again, i had to go home alone in a long bus journey.That's why living far from others really hurts.The loneliness. But i was so damn exahusted that i fell asleep once i got a seat in the bus.I got really lucky as i woke up right on my bustop.The moment i reached home,i showered then i just lied down & dozed off. It was indeed a long day for me.
Friday, September 23, 2005 5:47 AM
Dear Journal, got back our english papers,maths paper & science practical paper. Failed my summary.In the end get C5.Damn pissed with myself man.Definitely could have done better.Maths paper 1 was alright but paper 2 was simply atrocious so i ended up with a overall of a B4.Pathetic. bleah. Science practical was good man. 25.5 over 30.Beyond my expectations. But when i was told of my chem paper 2 & my mcq,my hopes of getting an A for science was washed away.Dissapointed.I screwed it up again.Like this how to go 1st 3 months sia.My poa paper 1 wasn't good either, just passed. i really don't know how i'm gona put it up to ms goh who put so much into our prelims. Such an ass i am.My L1R5 just keep on getting higher & higher. What to do? T_TPlayed basketball with some guys after school.We were released 1 period earlier which we don't know why but we loved it. It was scorching hot & i couldn't take it after playing 30 mins of full court,running up & down.Then went home.The basketball match wore me out & i fell asleep in the bus,missing mu stop by 3 stops. When i reached home,i took a short nap then went to play tennis. That was 4.30.When i was about to leave after playing alone at 6,my neighbours came in & asked me to stay on. So what the heck.Played 1 LONG singles set & a doubles set.Both lost 6-4.But had loads of fun. Now totally exhausted man.Going to turn in early. Tomorrow is going to be a hell lot of fun. =) i can't believe the damn AXN scrapped off "the legend of condor heroes" for some dorky show. Man,they always like to cut shows half way. Pissed with damn man. Well,at least i'll spend less time infront of the tv. Haha. ok,i'm lame.Just trying to console myself i guess.
Thursday, September 22, 2005 2:03 AM
Dear Journal, yesterday was 8th day of prelims. A maths paper 2.1 word to describe it. A.T.R.O.C.I.O.U.S!! Screwed it up badly.Actually didn't really find it difficult but didn't manage my time properly & left many questions undone.Damn wasted.Don't think i can pass la..Then after school moses,tuck wah,austin & gordon came over to play tennis.At first it was raining over at my house there so we played basketball at thompson CC then went there.Played for like 3 hours.Then watched them swim because didn't really felt like swimming.They came up to eat dinner.Then they left by around 8. It was indeed fun.=) today is officially the last day of prelims.Was already in like holiday mood before i take the paper man. Didn't really study a lot.The questions were alright & there were some tough ones. But when i checked the answers,i realized many of mine was wrong & was kind of careless.Now i think i can't get an A for science. I just keep getting better at screwing things up. But for now to enjoy a short break.To unwind all my piled up stress in a few days,catch up with my sleep,etc.After the paper,went to play soccer with a bunch of guys.Damn fun la.Never excersied so much in such a long time.So no stamina & was fully worn out in an hour.Then went over to desmond's place to play table tennis.Quite fun also.Just that the bats were no good. After we left his place went to eat with kashif then went home. Now,i'd better go get some daily dose of TV. Lala~ Over it is,Prelims. Finally. ELATED!!! XD
Tuesday, September 20, 2005 5:01 AM
Dear Journal, yesterday was the 6 th of prelims. A maths wasn't as difficult as i thought it'd be. Maybe i can pass this time. =) History...ARGH!!! Despite sepnding the whole morning to study without a wink of sleep.It's the SBQ again!! SEQ was supherb because i only studied one chapt & it came out. But SBQ was tough & it's gona pull me down again.Why am i so good in screwing things up?? T_T. i think so far every paper was alright except combined hummanities & english. it's always combined hummanities dissapointing me. Haiz.After our papers, most of Ms goh's gang including me went to eat in novena.Then went for her tution.My eye bags were like super heavy because i didn't sleep & ended up sleeping in her house.Then some of us decided to stay overnight at her place so went back home to get some stuffs & came back.On my way back bought some dinner for them.Even after taking a cold shower at home,i was still mentally tired.After 3 hours,i couldn't take it no more & tried to get some sleep after Ms goh & some of my friends asked me to.But no matter how hard i tried,i just couldn't fall asleep.Even with medicated oil,soothing music or some medicine which is supposed to cause drousiness.Everyone there got so worried abut me,especially ms goh. Kinda felt bad.I knew i shouldn't have drank that damn coffee.I'm never drinking coffee again. For the 1st time in my life, i as fighting for my life to sleep.But eventually,somehow i was able to sleep by 12.30 & woke up at 4.30.Then just revised my accounts before we got ready to go to school.Ms goh cooked us breakfast & even walked us to the bustop.Man,she's more like our mother then our teacher.i'm so glad i met her.She didn't even sleep because she was too busy teaching us.Thank you for everything ms goh! We really appreciate it! =D Today is 7th day of prelims-Accounts. Studying overnight at ms goh's place have paid off nicely.The paper was alright & i was able to do all of them.Except theory which i couldn't be bothered.Ate lunch in j8 then went home to catch up with my piled up sleep.Refreshed after napping for 3 hours.Now,i better prepare for a maths paper 2. 2 more days!! Alright~
Friday, September 16, 2005 8:02 AM
Dear Journal, Day 5 of prelims: just when i thought things were going my way, i screwed up my maths paper 2. Grrr...So damn frustrated with myself. Bad time organisation.Really bad.My hopes of getting an A for maths is washed away.Disappointed & sad.Maybe a B3 though. But i'm gona finish my race. Afterall,i've still got other subjects.I've got to get at least 20 for L1R5.By hook or by crook. C'mon!! i can do it!! Maths & english down. Still got A maths,History,Accounts & science Paper1. Almost finishing.......Argh,will anyone save me from this mugging agony?? Better go drill some Mao Zedong stuffs into my head for history. Combined Hummanities is a fucked/screwed up subject & i hope i never have to take it again after my O's.Pathetic shit=loser=ME
Thursday, September 15, 2005 9:01 AM
Dear Journal, the 5th day of my prelims wasn't bad at all. In fact it was one of my best practical paper that i have ever done. Especially for my chemistry. I feel good & i'm getting more confident.But i was sooo damn stupid to forget my index number & had to run to the canteen just before the exam started. The teacher even scolded me.Kinda embarassing but i'm positive that won't happen for o lvl.it'd better not happen. Later we're having maths paper 2. i'm really depending on my paper to get an A for maths so i need all the luck i have.Hope my last-minute studying will somehow pay off. I'm one step closer,i'll just have to continue moving forward. For once things are going my way. *grin =D
Wednesday, September 14, 2005 8:07 AM
Dear Journal, the 3rd & 4th day of prelims have swept by so quickly. 3rd was chemistry & today was physics.Well, they were not too bad.For the very 1st time,i think my chem is going to score higher than my physics. Haha.Tomorrow is my science practical & i'm in the 2nd shift so no need to go to school so early.Alright! XD After the paper ate at mac then went home. Watched TV then slept til like 4 then started revising my maths & chemistry.Then simon came at 6. At 8.30 i went to play tennis myself as i was too restless to study & it have been sometime since i last exercised. Getting damn lazy. Then came back at 10.Bathed & cleaned up my room. i have been wanting to clean my messy room for months & i finally done it but in the middle of prelims.Am i weird or what? haha. Feel better now. Better go touch up on my QA for tomorrow. 1 more week to go.......Come on! I can do it! =D
Monday, September 12, 2005 12:36 AM
Dear Journal, 2nd day of prelims.Maths & SS. maths was alright i guess but social studies was a tsunami for me.Wiped me away from passing my combined hummanities. I left 2 questions blank & didn't finish my SEQ because no time & no content. I should have jus studied Venice like so many people did.Boy,am i dumb.it's just not my day man.i've caught the flu bug.Talkin about lousy timing.i was more like thinking when i will like stop sneezing than to answering my questions.i think god is against me in doing well for prelims.i guess that's for not going to church for a freaking long time. but i guess there's still history to pull me up & hope i will feel better tomorrow. Physics is next & i'd better start mugging my ass off.
Saturday, September 10, 2005 6:02 AM
Dear Journal, this september holidays have been really unproductive. Prelims in 2 days & i'be still yet to finish my revision. I'm so in deep shit. I've been studying with Sam all week & he finished his revisions while i didn't. Man,everyone's mugging their asses off while i'm down here slacking.Nervous & worried,i've got to get into 1st 3 months jc man.Still left with science,a maths,history & social studies.So damn miserable man. Hope someone will save me from this agony. Gotta to go finish up my revisions.All the best to everyone! Jia You! =D
Friday, September 02, 2005 8:23 AM
Dear Journal, here i am,blogging in sam's place. Had atiring day today. Went to eat with Sam at 7.15.He was half an hour late as usual. Then went to school to study.At 11,we opened the band room to borrow my bass clarinet for tomorrow's NYJC tune in session. Then Mr Quek wanted us to have a spotcheck on 2T1 for cigaretts. Weird.When we finished spotcheck without any result,he told us he caught the guy already.WTF.Then we went to Plaza Singapura buy a reed.The reed is super explansive man. $7.50 per reed. Day-light robbery.Then saw this cool small instrument which was a pocket saxaphone and it looked like a picolo yet it sounded like a clarinet. Cool~The guy there was nice enough to explain what it was and demonstrate for us.Then we ate at kopitiam & Sam went to buy something before we left for my house.Upon reaching my house,i bathed & left for sam's house. When we reached his place, it was like already 6. We watched tv til 7,ate dinner before his family desserted me in their house. Did my accounts homework & practiced my bass. Still kinda scared & nervous for tomorrow's tune in session. It's just been so long since i last played & i'm just afraid i will make a fool out of myself tomorrow.Just hope everything goes well tomorrow.Oh yeah..got back my PPR today.Not too bad i guess.One of my best results. So damn tired now,gona sleep early because have to wake up early. chaoz. =D